http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/?_c11_BlogPart_BlogPart=blogview&_c=BlogPart&partqs=catEmotionen-USSun, 06 Jul 2008 15:31:11 GMTSun, 06 Jul 2008 15:31:11 GMTMicrosoft Spaces v1.1http://www.rssboard.org/rss-specification60http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/feed.rssblogcategory4406977619992375891MyUniqueLifeSpacehttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2745.entry<p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>I am continuing to watch <a href="http://www.oprah.com/obc_classic/webcast/archive/archive_watchnow.jsp" target="_blank">Oprah's A New Earth Web Classes</a> this morning, and I have finished <a href="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCFSgZYIXQ0GrGSxhF-WHCn_afVG4BqdibZ8DadxwDJfuKOtlXKbv9i8fJP6AC7LjTA?PARTNER=WRITER"><img style="border-right:0px;border-top:0px;border-left:0px;border-bottom:0px" height=133 alt="A New Earth" src="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCFHu3e3UK_0SsXwviV_BoYOyFjM-CJP-EbhSBeOXDz-VCB0XBn-ZTZE8clN3rhKz4I?PARTNER=WRITER" width=133 align=right border=0></a> reading the book <a href="http://www.amazon.com/New-Earth-Awakening-Purpose-Selection/dp/0452289963/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&amp;s=books&amp;qid=1211464542&amp;sr=1-1" target="_blank">A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose</a> by Eckhart Tolle: In <a href="http://event.oprah.com/videochannel/archive/archive_player.html?lesson3" target="_blank">Chapter 3</a> it's about: The Core of Ego, but I have chosen &quot;One with the Source!&quot; as my writing prompt today. I really enjoyed reading the book and I consider Eckhart to be a visionary with his combination of <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spirituality" target="_blank">spirituality</a>, <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Religion" target="_blank">religion</a>, psychology and even with his high intellectual level is able to explain what he's talking about in language that even I can understand.</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Watching the video on Charter 3 on the Internet has only encouraged my obsession with watching TV. The classes are approximately 1:30 minutes long, but I am thoroughly entertained by the class and the feedback from other peoples' input to the class. The reason I chose this title today <img title=Recliner src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/7/7_17_4.gif" align=left border=0>was because of what was said by Eckhart towards the end of the class about being One with the Source (God).</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>This is from one of my previous entries regarding <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Secret_(2006_film)" target="_blank">The Secret</a>: <strong><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!874.entry" target="_blank">What about the Unknown?</a> &quot;Is it that we don't understand how the Universe and God are One connected to all living things by some unknown link?&quot; Below are a few entries that I wanted to incorporate into today's writing, but my mind is too confused at this point to accomplish that task:</strong></strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><strong><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!809.entry" target="_blank">My futile attempt to Communicate</a>; <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!798.entry" target="_blank">Apprehensive Thought</a>; <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1407.entry" target="_blank">Just Thinking</a>; </strong><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!712.entry" target="_blank">The Quest</a>; <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!847.entry" target="_blank">Does having Faith Work?</a>; <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!756.entry" target="_blank">Capturing my Thoughts?</a>; <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!668.entry" target="_blank">Is that what's Wrong?</a>; <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!517.entry" target="_blank">Searching for Something</a>; <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1351.entry" target="_blank">Writing about Emotions</a></strong></font><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>. </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>A quote from <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1387.entry" target="_blank">The Secret: Experience Project</a>: &quot;<strong>I believe that God's the Creator of the Universe and that The Law of Attraction is God's will being done in our lives by Him showing His favor on us. <strong>Is it that I don't understand that <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/God">God</a> and the <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Universe">Universe</a> are One connected to all living things by some unknown link? Or by His <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holy_spirit">Holy Spirit</a>? I feel it is God's love that connects everything as One unto Him.</strong></strong><strong> I am going to continue to have faith in God and His control over the Universe.&quot;</strong></strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>My mind is totally confused at this point and I think that I am spending way too much time on <img title="Walking Dog" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/16/16_2_27.gif" align=right border=0>my writing, I need a break! I think I am going to go for a walk and try to get my thoughts back on the present moment, because at this point my writing is seeming a little overwhelming. </font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>       Jeff</font></strong> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+One+with+the+Source!&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2745.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2745.entryTue, 24 Jun 2008 17:27:44 GMT2blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2745/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2745.entry#comment2008-06-24T19:53:09Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2741.entry<p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>I was watching <a href="http://www.oprah.com/obc_classic/webcast/archive/archive_watchnow.jsp" target="_blank">Oprah's A New Earth Web Classes</a> this morning, and I have finished reading the book <a href="http://www.amazon.com/New-Earth-Awakening-Purpose-Selection/dp/0452289963/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&amp;s=books&amp;qid=1211464542&amp;sr=1-1" target="_blank">A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose</a> by Eckhart Tolle: In <a href="http://event.oprah.com/videochannel/archive/archive_player.html?lesson2" target="_blank">Chapter 2</a> he talked about <img height=138 src="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCHkqRFhqUNGuqCvQJk2_r2zT-drYR6-qsOnlNint66o9torbE-4LkA2EUrcihVnDsY?PARTNER=WRITER" width=138 align=right>&quot;The death of an Ego!&quot; I find myself hesitant to write about the thoughts I am have today; regarding my ego, the <a href="http://www.cnn.com/2008/SHOWBIZ/06/23/carlin.obit/index.html?iref=mpstoryview#cnnSTCVideo" target="_blank">death of George Carlin</a> and writing about these thoughts I am having. Janie at <a href="http://writeanything.wordpress.com/" target="_blank">Write Anything</a> has a great article on: <a href="http://writeanything.wordpress.com/2008/06/23/value-of-diary/" target="_blank">The Value of a Diary</a> and maybe that's where my writing should be written, but I write here because I don't think I would write every day in a diary.</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>I was frustrated watching the <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Skype" target="_blank">Skype</a> broadcast as the picture and sound kept skipping, but I managed to control <img title="Kicking Dirt" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_14_6.gif" align=left border=0>myself and continued to watch the class. When Eckhart talked about the death of his <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ego" target="_blank">ego</a>, it made me wonder if it is even possible to completely rid one's self of that part of their mind: What do I know about <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychoanalysis" target="_blank">psychoanalyzing</a> the mind and someone's behavior? I will be watching more of the classes as I am very interested in <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Humanistic_psychology" target="_blank">psychology</a>.</strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I watched this YouTube video: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MeSSwKffj9o" target="_blank">George Carlin on Religion</a> and be forewarned it contains profanity. I know that it is not my place to say anything <img title=Judge src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/3/3_12_31.gif" align=right border=0>about someone else's view on God, but I couldn't help thinking about George standing before God and it brought this Email to mind: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1664.entry" target="_blank">On Judgement Day</a>. I pray that George's views on religion and God was just a comedic routine for the audience, and may God have mercy on his soul.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I don't know why but for some reason I am fighting with my &quot;inner self&quot;, or my ego, or <img title="Good Vs Evil" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_9_209.gif" align=left border=0>whatever it is that is making me feel uncomfortable about what I am writing today. I have said what was on my mind, but now I feel like I am exposing my true nature in what I have said. That's really not that unusual though, I feel that way quite often and I don't know how to overcome these kinds of feelings.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>There is so much more that I want to write about on all these subjects, but for some <img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=right border=0>reason today is not the day. There is a limitation or a holding back in the words that I am trying to say so I am just going to try and relax and Enjoy Life!</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>       Jeff    </font></strong>  <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+The+death+of+an+Ego!&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2741.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2741.entryMon, 23 Jun 2008 19:21:27 GMT2blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2741/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2741.entry#comment2008-06-23T19:32:29Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2704.entry<p><img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=left border=0><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong> To me inspiration is a feeling, a joyous feeling of wanting to share my hopes, my dreams, my ideas, my thoughts and it makes me want to ask the question, &quot;What is Inspiration?&quot; <a href="http://encarta.msn.com/dictionary_/Inspiration.html" target="_blank">Inspiration</a>: according to the dictionary: &quot;</strong></font><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>stimulation for the human mind to creative thought or to the making of art&quot; and you can read about the many other definitions listed. But I think it has a lot to do with what kind of a mood I am in too!</strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>When everything seems right in the world and my future looks bright, it promotes an inspiring <img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=right border=0>feeling that makes me what to write and tell other people about what has inspired me. Then there is the dark side of inspiration when devastating news or my mood is distressed and I want to write about how I feel. These kinds of feelings are so very difficult to put into words but for some strange reason I continue to attempt to do so.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Here is a search of my Blog on: <a href="http://search.live.com/results.aspx?q=meta:search.pt(blogs)+site:myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com+inspiration&amp;form=QBRE" target="_blank">Inspiration</a> and a few entries with the subject word: </font></strong> <ul> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!394.entry" target="_blank">Words of Inspiration</a> </font></strong></div> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!251.entry?_c=BlogPart" target="_blank">Looking for Words of Inspiration</a> </font></strong></div> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1950.entry" target="_blank">Inspiring Quotes</a></font></strong></div> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2026.entry?&amp;_c02_owner=1" target="_blank">My Journal</a></font></strong></div> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1133.entry" target="_blank">Wondering about Visitors</a></font></strong></div></ul> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>When I started writing this entry today I was so inspired that I thought I could actually capture <img title="Question Mark" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_33_7.gif" align=left border=0>the essence of the word. Now after just a few short minutes of writing about inspiration mine has somehow miraculously vanished. That's exactly how inspiration is though, for me anyway, here for awhile than &quot;poof&quot; it is gone: I will be patiently waiting for its return and who knows what, where or why will inspire me next!</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>       Jeff  </font></strong> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+What+is+Inspiration%3f&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2704.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2704.entryThu, 19 Jun 2008 13:43:33 GMT2blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2704/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2704.entry#comment2008-06-19T13:43:33Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2673.entry<p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><a href="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCE1H7h_I3BRXf4NlkJNLDCZZuGd2py1SYbXHvLXOPCxYzPhOd033UymMd0pTLLABWc?PARTNER=WRITER"><img style="border-top-width:0px;border-left-width:0px;border-bottom-width:0px;border-right-width:0px" height=157 alt="Write Anything New" src="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCFKRsVAWrfyWHdC8vngiDKN202BJidRRU11RhX3Z0CSKjAEb7Nvj5C23qOTiqAJCEU?PARTNER=WRITER" width=247 align=left border=0></a> Hi Greg and Pat, I can’t Thank you enough for empathizing with me in regards to my post today, but I now feel like I am making a “big to do” out of nothing, because that’s just the way my father is, this is the comment I left on the </strong></font><a href="http://writeanything.wordpress.com/2008/06/16/what-to-reveal/" target="_blank"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>article</strong></font></a><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong> at </strong></font><a href="http://writeanything.wordpress.com/" target="_blank"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Write Anything</strong></font></a><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>: </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong> <div><span style="display:none"> </span><span style="display:none"> </span><span style="display:none"> </span> </div>I was having a very hard time coming up with something to write about today: Not because I couldn’t think of anything to say, but because of what I was thinking about. Your article and your questions persuaded me to speak my mind and I can’t Thank you enough for you writing your words of wisdom today. </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Although my writing today is very personal and I don’t really want air my dirty laundry in public…After speaking my mind today and getting these thoughts out of my head and on the page, I feel <img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=left border=0>the therapeutic relief that I so desperately desire and wish to achieve by writing. </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Thank you so much for writing: </strong></font><a href="http://writeanything.wordpress.com/2008/06/16/what-to-reveal/" target="_blank"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Autobiographical Writing: What to Reveal?</strong></font></a><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong> and allowing me to question my own thoughts today and write: You can’t say That! Oh but I did and I feel better for doing so. </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Enjoy Life! </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Pat, You mentioned your entry: </strong></font><a href="http://luvlinks51.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B4B698F79471D2E!554.entry" target="_blank"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Life</strong></font></a><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong> and I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through with your husband's illness. The hardships that we face in life can be overwhelming; it is only by the grace of God that we are able to endure our greatest fears and challenges. Everything happens for a reason and it makes us <img title="Crying 1" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_2_58.gif" align=right border=0>question God’s love for His children when we see all the pain and suffering going on in the world today. </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>We must be strong in our faith in God and try to understand that we can’t see the big picture in life. I know that it must be unbearable for you to see your husband suffering in such pain and you must be thinking to yourself, WHY! I cannot answer that question, but when our mission here on earth is complete, I am sure that we will all see the light and the grace of God when our time of peace arrives. </strong></font> <p><img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=left border=0><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Greg, Although I have only known you for a short period of time I feel the caring essence of your soul. It is so good to have a friend like you. I have been looking at the seemingly endless </strong></font><a href="http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/father.html" target="_blank"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Father Quotes</strong></font></a><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>:</strong></font> <img title="Mommy &amp; Baby" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/15/15_2_141.gif" align=right border=0> <p align=center><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3><strong>Most American children suffer too much mother and too little father. </strong></font><a href="http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/g/gloriastei383714.html" target="_blank"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3><strong>Gloria Steinem</strong></font></a> <p align=center><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3><strong>Any man can be a father, but it takes a special person to be a dad. </strong></font><a href="http://www.wow4u.com/proverbs/index.html"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3><strong>Proverb</strong></font></a> <h6><img title="Daddy &amp; Baby" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/15/15_2_143.gif" align=left border=0><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><a href="http://www.indianchild.com/fathers_day_poems.htm" target="_blank">Father and son poems</a>:  Perhaps we'll never understand each other.....</font></h6> <p align=center><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3><strong>Perhaps we'll never understand each other.<br>Loving doesn't mean that we agree.<br>If that were so, then I would say, why bother?<br>But there are things I know I'll never see.<br>I'm sure your heart knows what I don't yet know:<br>The pain of loving a reluctant son;<br>The anger, coming fast and building slow,<br>Of being helpless to control someone.<br>You want only that I grow up right,<br>But you know what right is, and I still don't.<img title="Daddy &amp; Baby" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/15/15_2_143.gif" align=right border=0><br>I have to learn to wield my inner light,<br>And if I follow yours, well, then I won't.<br>I'm sorry for the anger in the air;<br>Though we fight, my love is always there.</strong></font> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3>Author: Unknown</font></strong>  <p align=left><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>This is what I wrote when I tried to answer the <img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=left border=0>comments on: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2668.entry" target="_blank">You can't say That!</a> I thought that there was just too much information wrote down here to hide this in a comment so I decided to post it as another entry.</font></strong> <p align=left><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p align=left><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>       Jeff</font></strong> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+Thoughts+on%3a+You+can't+say+That!&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2673.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2673.entryMon, 16 Jun 2008 23:53:43 GMT3blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2673/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2673.entry#comment2008-06-18T11:08:18Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2668.entry<p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><img title=Shocked src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_19_2.gif" align=left border=0></strong></font> I find myself wanting to reveal thoughts that I am having today and then saying, &quot;You can't say That!&quot; Yesterday was Father's Day and I wrote: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2660.entry" target="_blank">Happy Father's Day!</a> I tried to call my Dad and the phone number that I have to contact him has been disconnected. I have such a hard time trying to communicate with my Dad maybe because he does seem to want to talk to me. I called him last year and left a message on the answering machine, but I never heard <img title=Morph src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_3_13.gif" align=right border=0>anything back from him.</strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I sent my Dad a Father's day card last year and this year, but I never know if he gets the cards or not, it makes me wonder if I am just wasting my time trying to let him know that I love him. Maybe I am making more out of what is actually going on here than there is? But it brings to mind one of the <a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Exodus 20:2–17&amp;version=31" target="_blank">Ten Commandments</a>: </font></strong> <ul> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Exodus 20:12;&amp;version=31;" target="_blank">Exodus 20:12</a> </font></strong></div> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><font color="#ff0000">Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.</font> </font></strong> </div></ul> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>It also brings to mind: What obligation does a Father have to keep in touch with his son or daughter? I guess according to the law in most <img title="Question Mark" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_33_7.gif" align=left border=0>states that once a child reaches the age of 18 or whatever the law says in the state you're in, his obligation has been met. Why do I feel like an abandon child? I am an adult and my father has no obligation to keep in touch with me...But is there a more humane reason to keep in touch with your children or for a sibling to feel the need to stay in touch with their parents.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>There is a couple of reasons I am writing about <a href="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCGtAsXfP_Fy9o7ggEJP1fsYOQj929IujZkIIDTlDIpUQl4NXxwFELFXTw1HWmIAA8E?PARTNER=WRITER"><img style="border-right:0px;border-top:0px;border-left:0px;width:207px;border-bottom:0px;height:135px" height=136 alt="Write Anything New" src="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCHTQ7YZlrHgrpVUYbJE849eYBHikcI_7OA3tlJcwKzXNUK-YUNGyRzTNI44E2em0yA?PARTNER=WRITER" width=214 align=right border=0></a> this today and one of them is <a href="http://www.jhsiess.com/" target="_blank">Janie's</a> article: <a href="http://writeanything.wordpress.com/2008/06/16/what-to-reveal/" target="_blank">Autobiographical Writing: What to Reveal?</a> From <a href="http://writeanything.wordpress.com/2008/06/16/what-to-reveal/" target="_blank">Writing Anything</a> and although I feel like I am defiantly revealing too much in my writing today it's also good therapy to get these thoughts out of my mind and to record them in my Blog. </font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Janie's opening sentence, &quot;Writers are constantly looking for story ideas and sometimes they are literally right in front of us — when we look into <img title="Lightbulb Idea" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_33_8.gif" align=left border=0>the mirror.&quot; What I am writing about today is literally look at me in the mirror and it is how I feel about not having a personal relationship with my own father. I feel like I am revealing too much of my personal life to the entire world...But what can you say that isn't revealing too much or at least something about yourself when you write? </font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Janie asks these great questions, &quot;</font></strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3><strong>What guidelines do you follow with regard to writing about your personal life? Are there topics or areas of interest <img title="Question Mark" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_33_7.gif" align=right border=0>that are completely off-limits? What factors are most important to you when you consider whether or not to share details about people, places or time periods in your life? And ultimately, how do you decide what and how much to reveal about yourself and the folks you have loved or encountered in your life?<font color="#000000">&quot;</font></strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>My answers: The guidelines that I am following in my writing are made up each day and are usually determined by my mood and how what I have written makes me feel. I think that what I have written today about my Dad is off-limits, but it's how I feel and I can't seem to write about <img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=left border=0>anything else because it is what is on my mind.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>The factors that are important to me about what I write about are not necessarily details, people, places or times, but more importantly life's lessons and what I have learned from them is what I want to record in my writing. How I decide on what I will allow myself to reveal in my writing: Is a combination of my ego (That part of me that is never satisfied) and my mind (What I am thinking about) and there in lies the words that I will allow myself to show <img title="Thank You" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_30_126.gif" align=right border=0>up on the page.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>I want to Thank Janie for writing this emotionally challenging, for me; article today because without her prying the feelings from my heart I would have never wrote this: I am truly grateful! I really believe that without the prompting from other writers I would never be able to reveal my inner most secrets in my life. I really feel that writing about my relationship that I have with my father <img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=left border=0>is taboo from what I should be writing about.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>Then the question comes to mind, <em>What will you write about? </em>and there is the really issue, for me, with writing at all: You have to be able to bring yourself into the present moment and into a consciousness of the very words, thoughts, ideas and feelings that you are having and write them on the page. Saying that brings to mind: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1935.entry?&amp;_c02_owner=1" target="_blank">My Truth Quote</a>:</font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font size="+0"><strong><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=5>Even if the truth hurts; it doesn't make it any less true!<img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=right border=0></font></strong></strong></font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>What I have written here today is more revealing then I like to say about what I write, but by being truthful in my writing, this is not fiction, doesn't make it any less true!</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>       Jeff</font></strong>  <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+You+can't+say+That!&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2668.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2668.entryMon, 16 Jun 2008 15:37:45 GMT7blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2668/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2668.entry#comment2008-06-19T22:31:36Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2553.entry<p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>I really like this <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Billy_Joel" target="_blank">Billy Joel</a> song/video/<a href="http://www.lyrics007.com/Billy Joel Lyrics/Pressure Lyrics.html" target="_blank">lyrics</a>: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6fPeNBDRbDA" target="_blank">Pressure</a>, and although I shouldn't be feeling any pressure at all in my life &quot;I <img title="Kicking Dirt" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_14_6.gif" align=left border=0>Can't Handle Pressure!&quot; The kind of pressure that I am going to be writing about today is self imposed, it's in my mind. These thoughts of pressure I am experiencing I have dealt with my whole life, and this new book I am reading: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2459.entry" target="_blank">A New Earth</a> has really enlightened me to the fact that <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!902.entry" target="_blank">I am my worst enemy</a>.</strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I feel pressure imposed on my mind to accomplish things that I know are beyond my ability to do. I am sure that I am not the only one that is having these kinds of thoughts and feelings to accomplish great things in their life. But it puts so much pressure on my mind to learn, to write, to accomplish, to succeed, and I don't believe that having all these kinds of thoughts of pressure <img title=Meditate src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/7/7_5_144.gif" align=right border=0>helps me to reach the consciousness one needs to live in the &quot;Present Moment.&quot;</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>In this entry: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2463.entry" target="_blank">Who's Who: Ego!</a> I wrote about the <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psycology">psychology</a> of my mind, without really exposing my ego and the other influences (or voices in my mind) on my perception of being conscious and living in the moment. I was having thoughts last night to write about the pressures that I feel but should not be having at all, and how I find writing about my thoughts so therapeutic.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=left border=0>This is from my entry: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1642.entry" target="_blank">Writing Every Day for a Year</a> about <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Writing_therapy" target="_blank">writing therapy</a>, &quot;I love the therapeutic value that I receive from putting my thoughts into writing. I hate the paranoia that I <img title=Embarrassed src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_12_9.gif" align=right border=0>talked about in my first entry that I don't think that I will ever overcome.&quot; </font></strong><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>When I make errors in my writing like today when I posted: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2552.entry" target="_blank">Service Pack 3: Defragmentation Report</a> and I said that I didn't think the <a href="http://do8mva.bay.livefilestore.com/y1pj_mIOk2uZTufbN0IqL4ft19L-R4vln5xLdYizoUBUsSLD5_dZS9PDA_823EfMAg8NxZ8FLFWUCfpC34zALjoQEAsnKZvn7i-?PARTNER=WRITER" target="_blank">BitMap picture</a> would show up in my <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/photos/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1460/" target="_blank">Blog Photos Album</a> and I was wrong. I feel embarrassed about making mistakes, but life goes on! Who hasn't made a mistake?</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>       Jeff   </font></strong>  <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+I+Can't+Handle+Pressure!&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2553.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2553.entryTue, 03 Jun 2008 15:43:33 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2553/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2553.entry#comment2008-06-03T15:49:57Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2459.entry<div style="padding-right:0px;display:inline;padding-left:0px;float:left;padding-bottom:0px;margin:0px;width:217px;padding-top:0px"> <div><span style="display:none"> </span><span style="display:none"> </span><span style="display:none"> </span><span style="display:none"> </span><span style="display:none"> </span><span style="display:none"> </span> </div>Eckhart Tolle on Being Yourself</div><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong> I am reading a new book called: <a href="http://www.amazon.com/New-Earth-Awakening-Purpose-Selection/dp/0452289963/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&amp;s=books&amp;qid=1211464542&amp;sr=1-1" target="_blank">&quot;A New Earth&quot;: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose</a> by Eckhart Tolle, and I have talked before about my lack of comprehension when I read. I wanted to write something about the book today, and I was searching around the Internet looking for reviews on the <img title="Question Mark" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_33_7.gif" align=right border=0>book. I was trying to find out what kinds of thoughts the book was inspiring in other people's minds. This video on <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j42cTkiGdXY" target="_blank">Being Yourself</a> will give you some idea of the complexity of these kinds of thoughts.</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>I found this: <a href="http://www.oprah.com/obc_classic/webcast/archive/archive_watchnow.jsp" target="_blank">Watch A New Earth Web Classes</a> and I couldn't be more excited about being able to read the book and then watch the videos. I think it will help me to understand what the book is about <img title=Reading src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_13_3.gif" align=left border=0>by having it explained by the author and Oprah interviewing him. In the first video Eckhart was talking about how he was inspired to write the book by his thoughts. It reminds me of myself and how I<font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><a href="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCHkqRFhqUNGuqCvQJk2_r2zT-drYR6-qsOnlNint66o9torbE-4LkA2EUrcihVnDsY?PARTNER=WRITER"><img style="border-right:0px;border-top:0px;border-left:0px;border-bottom:0px" height=148 alt="A New Earth" src="http://by1.storage.msn.com/y1pA8zWCkNArbJH0l2Eo1rWECZVkqQWZkpa8UnGV2iXj2tlweMouhWGFAzNkVLd1D-70AXC0md1WRVv_TC_Xq33Kg?PARTNER=WRITER" width=148 align=right border=0></a></strong></font> struggle to put a few thoughts into words and then write about them every day.</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>I really feel that the book is written way above my reading comprehension level, but with watching the videos, I too, might be able to get the author's meaning out of the book and awaken my life's purpose! I have read three chapters in the book, but I actually got more out of watching 10 minutes of the video on <a href="http://event.oprah.com/videochannel/archive/archive_player.html?lesson1" target="_blank">Chapter One</a>. </strong></font> <p><img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=left border=0><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>I am not giving up on reading the book, I am finding it fascinating. I am going to read the book and then watch the videos to try and improve my reading ability.</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Thanks for Listening,</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>       Jeff        </strong></font> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+A+New+Earth&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2459.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2459.entryThu, 22 May 2008 15:43:29 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2459/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2459.entry#comment2008-06-24T19:32:28Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2377.entry<div style="padding-right:0px;display:inline;padding-left:0px;float:left;padding-bottom:0px;margin:0px;width:235px;padding-top:0px"> <div><span style="display:none"> </span><span style="display:none"> </span> </div></div> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong> I often wonder: What the &quot;Things I Might Say <font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><img title=Thinking src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_12_12.gif" align=right border=0></strong></font>Are?&quot; I guess I will never know, because I am too <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paranoia" target="_blank">paranoid</a> to just let my inhibitions go and write whatever comes to mind. I liked the Black Sabbath Paranoid <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SRwwYWlbP2U" target="_blank">song/video</a>/<a href="http://lyricwiki.org/Black_Sabbath:Paranoid" target="_blank">lyrics</a> because it describes some of the things I am trying to write about today. </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><img title="Rolling Eyes" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_19_4.gif" align=left border=0>Do you know what the strangest thing about writing how I feel is? I never know who's going to be reading what I write. </strong></font><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>As if it makes any difference to you, the only time I am really concerned about someone reading my thoughts is when it is on the front page of my site. After it goes off of my home page it's hidden from view, and falls into the Blogging obis never to be seen again. </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>You know what I mean it gets stored on my site, but what are the chances that anyone is actually going to retrieving what I wrote on a search <img title=Computer height=82 src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_9_10.gif" width=82 align=right border=0>engine? They're probably astronomical once the entry is off of my home page that anyone will ever read what I wrote. It's gone never to be seen again, except maybe by me, because I look at my previous entries quite often, or especially when something that I wrote is brought up in an Internet search, and the chances of that happening are slim to none. </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>When I read other people's writing or entries or articles, I don't really take their words <font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><img title=Reading src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_13_3.gif" align=left border=0></strong></font>personally, like I do with my own words. Whatever it is they are writing about usually just seems normal to me and I just read it. But for some reason I think that the words that I write should be held to some kind of special meaning, whatever that's supposed to mean.</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>I am looking at this entry: &quot;Things I Might Say<font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><img title="Blah Blah Blah" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_11_16.gif" align=right border=0></strong></font> Are?&quot; and for the life of me I really don't know why anyone would want to read this blah, blah, blah bunch of garbage, can you?</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Thanks for Listening,</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>       Jeff  </strong></font> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+Things+I+Might+Say+Are%3f&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2377.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2377.entryMon, 05 May 2008 11:57:12 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2377/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2377.entry#comment2008-05-05T12:24:20Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2283.entry<p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong> I don't know if I will ever get over this feeling of paranoia that I have about writing, so I just keep <img title="Scared 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_7.gif" align=right border=0>saying to myself, &quot;Get Over It!&quot; I know that it has something to do my inflated ego, and how I am embarrassed by the way that I write, and the things that I say. </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>The reality is: That I am the only one that needs to be satisfied by the words I put on the page. The idea that you can read them shouldn't be any of my concern, and the only reason that I write in a <img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=left border=0>public place is so that I will at least try to write something coherent.</strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Trying to communicate my thoughts into words is something that I want to achieve in my writing. I don't know if I will ever really feel comfortable with expressing myself in words, but that's the challenge. I have never felt that I have the &quot;gift to gab&quot; and I often wonder if writing everyday will help me to obtain that gift. Then again does it matter to anyone but me?</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>The feeling of being anxious like I am in front of an audience is on my mind, but there's no reason to feel that way, I am sure. Writing might not be my thing and like I said in this entry: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2263.entry" target="_blank">It's Your Thing?</a> &quot;<strong><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seinfeld">Elaine's</a> dancing like no one's watching in the video reminded me that I should write like no<img title="Walking Garbage Can" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_1_136.gif" align=right border=0> one's going to read this, which is probably true.&quot;</strong></font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I think that most people would delete this writing I have here today, but to me it is important that I keep it and learn to get over it. I want to give myself permission to &quot;write garbage&quot; and accept the fact that this is what I wrote. I think I would write a lot more if I could get over the fact that you may think less of me, because of the things I wrote.</font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=5>Who really cares? Get Over <img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=left border=0>It!!!!!!!</font></strong> <p align=left><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p align=left><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>       Jeff</font></strong>  <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+Get+Over+It!&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2283.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2283.entryMon, 21 Apr 2008 15:21:17 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2283/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2283.entry#comment2008-04-21T15:21:17Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2239.entry<p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><img style="border-right:0px;border-top:0px;border-left:0px;border-bottom:0px" height=86 alt="Two Hearts" src="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCE_X6ND7DLa4Jw22_7_cizi2Z4RZzXwcmEODbKo16HNDfOl43zZsxr2MioyM_yKCQ4?PARTNER=WRITER" width=120 align=left border=0> I feel like I am &quot;Emotionally Sensitive&quot; because of my thoughts and feelings. I have written about how I am always Catastrophising everything in my mind, and I really liked this article: <a href="http://www.reachout.com.au/default.asp?ti=2252" target="_blank">Common Thinking Errors</a>, and <img title="Best Friends" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/15/15_8_210.gif" align=right border=0>how this type of thinking is clearly spelled out. I read this article: <a href="http://women.webmd.com/features/you-sensitive" target="_blank">Are You Too Sensitive?</a> I thought this was interesting: &quot;That's because so many more people live in cities today, which breeds anonymity and insensitivity to what others think. We have more rudeness in our society than people in the 18th century could've ever imagined.&quot;</strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Although the article was written for women's health, I found this article about <img title="Soldier's Kiss" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_5_14v.gif" align=left border=0>men's health: <a href="http://www.askmen.com/money/mafioso_100/130_mafia.html" target="_blank">12 Ways Men Have Become Sissies</a>  regarding being sensitive. After reading both articles it made me question my <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emotion" target="_blank">emotions</a> and whether or not a man should be sensitive. The whole <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Masculinity" target="_blank">Masculinity</a> vs. <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Femininity" target="_blank">Femininity</a> and the emotional issues that arise from showing people that you care.</font></strong>  <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>The point for my writing about this emotional <strong><strong>issue here </strong></strong>today is because I feel that: </font></strong><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!223.entry" target="_blank">We all are People Behind The Keyboard</a> and no matter your sex; it shouldn't change the fact that we are all human beings. Whether or not someone is <img title=Computer src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_9_10.gif" align=right border=0>sensitive shouldn't change the fact that no one has the right to hurt other people. I feel fortunate that I have only met nice people in my experience with writing in my Blog.</font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><font color="#ff0000">May Love, Hope, Peace and Joy be with you always!</font>  </font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>       Jeff</font></strong> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+Emotionally+Sensitive&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2239.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2239.entryWed, 09 Apr 2008 16:21:44 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2239/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2239.entry#comment2008-04-09T16:49:52Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2214.entry<p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong> I often feel like I am not really saying anything with what I am writing, but merely trying to put &quot;Write some <font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=right border=0></strong></font>Words!&quot; on the page. It seems to me the emotional side of write is often left in the heart of the one writing the words. The letters join together to make the words and the words to make the sentences, but the feelings one has at the end of writing a paragraph may or may not be conveyed.</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Sounds kind of elementary doesn't it, but do you </strong></font><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>understand what I am trying say here? There is just so much more going on in my mind, and what I feel that some how <img title="I Wove You" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_6_206.gif" align=left border=0>doesn't end up in the words, sentences and paragraphs: Am I the only one that has this sense that the feelings are missing? Example: You say the words, &quot;I Love You&quot; without me knowing you, and you knowing me, how can you have the feeling, they seem like some words on a page.</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Maybe it is because I haven't learned how to write in the true sense of the word, or that I don't read with the heartfelt meaning behind the <img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=right border=0>words. I struggle with this problem quite often, and I think that, <em>It is only me! </em>Can you relate to what I am saying as I write some words on the page?</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Thanks for Listening,</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>       Jeff   </strong></font> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+Write+some+Words!&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2214.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2214.entryThu, 03 Apr 2008 13:47:17 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2214/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2214.entry#comment2008-04-03T13:47:17Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2203.entry<p align=center><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3><strong>To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;<br>It means I can't do it for someone else.<br>To let go is not to cut myself off...<br>It's the realization that I can't control another...<br>To let go is not to enable,<br>but to allow learning from natural consequences.<br>To let go is to admit powerlessness,<br>which means the outcome is not in my hands.<br>To let go is not to try and change or blame another,<br>I can only change myself.<br>To let go is not to care for, but to care about.<br>To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.<br>To let go is not to judge,<br>but to allow another to be a human being.<br>To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,<br>but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.<br>To let go is not to be protective,<br>It is to permit another to face reality.<br>To let go is not to deny, but to accept.<br>To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue,<br>but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.<br>To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,<br>but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment.<br>To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone,<br>but to try to become what I dream I can be.<br>To let go is not to regret the past,<br>but to grow and live for the future.<br>To let go is to fear less and love more.</strong></font> <p align=center><a><strong><img title="Click to visit ImageShack for Image Hosting!" alt="img222/8111/shinexh8.gif" src="http://img222.imageshack.us/img222/8111/shinexh8.gif"></strong></a><a><strong><img title="Click to visit ImageShack for Image Hosting!" alt="img222/8111/shinexh8.gif" src="http://img222.imageshack.us/img222/8111/shinexh8.gif"></strong></a><a><strong><img title="Click to visit ImageShack for Image Hosting!" alt="img222/8111/shinexh8.gif" src="http://img222.imageshack.us/img222/8111/shinexh8.gif"></strong></a><a><strong><img title="Click to visit ImageShack for Image Hosting!" alt="img222/8111/shinexh8.gif" src="http://img222.imageshack.us/img222/8111/shinexh8.gif"></strong></a><a><strong><img title="Click to visit ImageShack for Image Hosting!" alt="img222/8111/shinexh8.gif" src="http://img222.imageshack.us/img222/8111/shinexh8.gif"></strong></a><a><strong><img title="Click to visit ImageShack for Image Hosting!" alt="img222/8111/shinexh8.gif" src="http://img222.imageshack.us/img222/8111/shinexh8.gif"></strong></a><a><strong><img title="Click to visit ImageShack for Image Hosting!" alt="img222/8111/shinexh8.gif" src="http://img222.imageshack.us/img222/8111/shinexh8.gif"></strong></a> <p align=center><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>This is from an <a href="http://angel4real.stumbleupon.com/about/" target="_blank">Angel for Real's page</a>, and I hope <img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=right border=0>she doesn't mind that I copied it? I liked it so much; I wanted to have it on my page so I can read it often, because I have such a hard time with &quot;<a href="http://angel4real.stumbleupon.com/review/19346520/" target="_blank">Letting Go</a>!&quot;</strong></font> <p align=center><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3><strong>I think this is beautiful, I love it!</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Thanks for Listening,</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>       Jeff </strong></font> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+Letting+Go&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2203.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2203.entryMon, 31 Mar 2008 18:33:14 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2203/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2203.entry#comment2008-03-31T18:33:14Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2194.entry<p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><a href="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCENP69moUCxw7buurgUFWCnTFGUt1K_UVVRjRdc2srYRL89G5SfLs3UOo4LW7BnEJE?PARTNER=WRITER"><img style="border-right:0px;border-top:0px;border-left:0px;width:235px;border-bottom:0px;height:151px" height=151 alt="Write Stuff New" src="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCHNLyxEbq0lvGW86sLLRlMDgmwxdtnJ0gft0MEiz_klhFA96ISYPBvUPWQrqC5n6Dw?PARTNER=WRITER" width=238 align=left border=0></a> The <a href="http://www.take2max.com/writing/" target="_blank">Write Stuff</a> is having another <a href="http://writeanything.wordpress.com/2008/03/29/verifying-memoirs/" target="_blank">Say it on Saturday</a>; I have chosen &quot;Writing My Memoirs&quot; for the title of my writing today. The writing prompt question is, &quot;Do you think it’s possible to “verify” memoirs?&quot; My answer: Writing my <img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=right border=0>thoughts and memories is something I get great satisfaction from, and being able to verify what I have said is right here in my Blog; having what has inspired me today, or what thoughts I was having written down, is new to me.</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>I am making an attempt to learn how to write my memoirs, thoughts, stories and anything on my mind on any given day, don't laugh: Everyone has <img title="School Uniform" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/3/3_3_32.gif" align=left border=0>to start somewhere, don't they? I have always wanted to say this, &quot;I didn't think learning English was important when I was in school, (this is for all of you who are still in school and might be thinking the same thing) you never know you might want to write your own autobiography some day so do your best to learn English!&quot;</strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Jodi's article: <a href="http://writeanything.wordpress.com/2008/03/29/writers-shame/" target="_blank">Writers Shame</a> asks these questions, &quot;What was the shaming charge/s leveled at you? How has it poisoned the way in which you <img title="Good Vs Evil" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_9_209.gif" align=right border=0>perceive yourself as a writer and your ability create?&quot; This is from my entry: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2073.entry" target="_blank">Off the top of My Head</a> &quot;<strong>&quot;My Inner Self&quot; that's holding me back, but why am I doing this to myself? Maybe if I would just focus on the good stuff and quit listening to the negative statements that I am always hearing from my conscience (or whoever that voice is) I could accomplish these goals and appreciate myself.&quot;</strong></font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I think we all have an &quot;Inner Self&quot;; Jodi referred to hers as Miss Hisler, but I have heard it called Gremlins, <img title="Question Mark" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_33_7.gif" align=left border=0>Conscience, the devil, as in the icon above, or whatever name you give yours, it's the same menacing negative voice. I have so many things poisoning my ability to write, and hindering me by how I perceive myself, that it is an ongoing experiment in futility. What can I do? Continue to write and strive for something that I will never even know if I have ever achieved it, at least it gives me something to do!</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I would love to post this on Say it on Saturday; <img title="Belly Laugh" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_1_219.gif" align=right border=0>my &quot;Inner Self&quot; won't let me, because I feel my writing is inadequate. That's OK at least I had fun writing and dreaming I might someday write something someone might want to read. My &quot;Inner Self&quot; is saying, &quot;You're an Idiot!&quot;</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>       Jeff   </font></strong> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+Writing+My+Memoirs&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2194.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2194.entrySat, 29 Mar 2008 15:21:35 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2194/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2194.entry#comment2008-06-04T20:33:18Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2179.entry<p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><a href="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCHFsVkkiyZx6Nj7pZQdbKv4F57QxPGIjXx_oY9Wx-AzQemSRVHJDEuyo-fumWTU1qk?PARTNER=WRITER"><img style="border-right:0px;border-top:0px;border-left:0px;width:124px;border-bottom:0px;height:168px" height=169 alt=neobrain src="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCGcKSpDttCkGiuupYLxTVUjriK_yFyYWCb3p_YbUDvOnkTaL-C3Fydhyk-ZsXbnszE?PARTNER=WRITER" width=130 align=left border=0></a>  This feeling &quot;I am Stressed Out!&quot; I think has a lot to do with my <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2152.entry" target="_blank">Catastrophising Everything!</a> Bobby has written a great article: <a href="http://revellian.com/2008/03/24/how-to-cope-with-stress/">How To Cope With Stress</a> and his opening sentence sounds just like me. That's why I have <img title=Doctor src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_17_1.gif" align=right border=0>chosen this title for today, but it's more than just something to write about: I really do make myself miserable and get all stressed out over thinking the worst possible outcome in any given situation.</strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>This thought from <a href="http://revellian.com/" target="_blank">Bobby's</a> article, &quot;we must learn to let go of thoughts that fester and nurture stress&quot; is so true, if only I could achieve that &quot;letting go of those detrimental thoughts.&quot; I really like this <a href="http://www.moritherapy.org/article/recovering-from-addiction-a-prayer/" target="_blank">prayer</a> from <a href="http://www.moritherapy.org/" target="_blank">Isabella's </a>site today too, because I think what I am doing to myself is some kind of addiction to make myself feel bad, by having these very negative thoughts, but why? This is one of my entries that come to mind: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!902.entry" target="_blank"><img title="Question Mark" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_33_7.gif" align=left border=0>Don't Let Me Get Me</a>, and I believe &quot;I'm a hazard to myself&quot; with this kind of thinking.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>It is like I have this grand illusion (<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHN_A552uOg" target="_blank">video/song</a>) of who I really am (<a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ego" target="_blank">ego</a>) and who I want to be? Like when I try to call myself a writer: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1912.entry" target="_blank">Today I am a Writer!</a> And when the enthusiasm/inspiration is gone, and I am left with the thoughts of: <em>Why did you say that? You're not a writer!</em></font></strong><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3> The viscous circle continues with the emotional and internal conflict of; what or who I am?</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Another of my internal conflicts is: Who's going <img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=right border=0>to read this and should I even let that thought dwell in my mind? It doesn't matter, I wrote something today and that's what's really important to me, to put something down in writing!</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>       Jeff  </font></strong> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong> </strong></font><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+I+am+Stressed+Out!&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2179.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2179.entryTue, 25 Mar 2008 17:53:24 GMT2blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2179/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2179.entry#comment2008-03-31T21:54:33Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2152.entry<p><img title="Scared 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_7.gif" align=left border=0><font size=3><font face="Tempus Sans ITC"><strong><a href="http://encarta.msn.com/dictionary_/Catastrophising.html" target="_blank">Catastrophising</a> is not a word but to me it is definitely a way of thinking and I just <img title=Doctor src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_17_1.gif" align=right border=0>have to talk about something that happen yesterday because I am always &quot;Catastrophising Everything!&quot; The definition of <a href="http://encarta.msn.com/dictionary_1861670218/catastrophism.html" target="_blank">catastrophism</a>: </strong></font></font><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>pessimism: an outlook or attitude that foresees disaster as the only possible outcome of any action or situation.</strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>The Fable of <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Sky_Is_Falling_(fable)" target="_blank">Chicken Little</a> depicts this type of thinking in it with &quot;The sky is falling&quot; or the idiom of <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Make_a_mountain_out_of_a_molehill" target="_blank">making a mountain out of a mole hill</a>. <img title="Don't Worry About It" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_33_19.gif" align=left border=0>The psychological term for this type of thinking is <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Generalized_anxiety_disorder" target="_blank">generalized anxiety disorder</a>  and if it is severe enough it is treated with some type of <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cognitive_behavioral_therapy" target="_blank">therapy</a>. <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Worry" target="_blank">Worry</a> is the most basic term for this type of thinking, but when it is devastating your mind to the point of not thinking clearly, it's a problem.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>The story: I hear water running through the meter <img title=Reading src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_13_3.gif" align=left border=0>in the house; it sounds similar to when you turn on the faucet on low a hissing type sound. I am checking all the usual places for problems with water running. All the <img title=Thinking src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_12_12.gif" align=right border=0>faucets, the toilet and I cannot find where the water is leaking. The house is on a slab (no basement) so I immediately think the worst: The pipes going to the laundry room which run under the concrete floor has to be where the water is running.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I have visions of having the concrete floor jack hammered open to replace <img title="Construction Worker" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/15/15_8_214.gif" align=left border=0>the pipes, all the cabinets and the walls torn out to get at the pipes. I made an appointment with the plumber to get an estimate to have the work done and shut the water off and when to bed. I woke up dreading what was going to happen today worrying about the water leaking under the house.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>My wife had turned the water back on to get ready for work and as she is going out the door <img title=Embarrassed src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_12_9.gif" align=right border=0>she hears water running. The outside faucet in the front of the house was running. The water was shut off for the winter from inside of the house but yet the water was running. The rubber washer in the shut off value must have deteriorated and allowed the water to leak. </font></strong> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>I put myself through the emotional <img title=Duh src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_19_1.gif" align=left border=0>trauma and all the devastation of having the house torn up because of my Catastrophising. When in reality I just need to replace a rubber washer! </strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>       Jeff</font></strong>  <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+Catastrophising+Everything!&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2152.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2152.entryThu, 20 Mar 2008 19:57:18 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2152/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2152.entry#comment2008-03-31T22:09:06Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2123.entry<p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong> I don't like the thoughts I am having and I want to &quot;Change my Thoughts&quot; to be more productive. Sometimes I let my mind take me to places where I know that there's just no <img title=Thinking src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_12_12.gif" align=right border=0>satisfaction in thinking that way and I have control over my thoughts. What I am trying to accomplish here is to write myself into a better frame of mind: Wish me luck! I know why I am thinking this way, it's because I don't have anything on my mind that is inspiring me to write.</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>It would probably be better if I just didn't write anything at all, and accept the fact that I am in <img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=left border=0>one of those moods. But in so doing that I would have let my mind have its way with me and it would have won. Sounds like an internal struggle doesn't it? Well it is, and I am not going to allow my mind get the better of me, because it happens all too often. The strange part about writing about my internal conflicts, that I have quite often, is that I usually prevail and I resist writing about it.</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Maybe it would be better just to get these conflicting thoughts out of my mind and write them down. I think that's what I am actually doing right now, but I can't be sure that I am being completely honest with myself either. My <img title="Scared 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_7.gif" align=right border=0>thought at this moment is one of paranoia and why would I want to let anyone see this! I think that's the real issue here, and I need to get over that type of thinking. You would think that I would have overcome this fear of expressing my thoughts by now, but I guess not! </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Thanks for Listening,</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>       Jeff      </strong></font> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+Change+my+Thoughts&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2123.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2123.entryThu, 13 Mar 2008 20:01:19 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2123/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2123.entry#comment2008-03-13T20:01:19Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2115.entry<div style="padding-right:0px;display:inline;padding-left:0px;float:left;padding-bottom:0px;margin:0px;width:216px;padding-top:0px"><div></div></div> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong> I am lost in thought today without a subject to write about and what has come to mind is a &quot;Search for Meaning!&quot; I watched the movie <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gabriel_(film)" target="_blank">Gabriel</a> today and I thought, for sure, it would inspire me to write, so much for <img title=Recliner src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/7/7_17_4.gif" align=right border=0>anticipating my muse. I really like the movie and I will probably watch it again. </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>The problem I am having with writing today is more than likely, because of the mood I am in. To describe my mood: Uninspired! </strong></font><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I have struggled all day with what to write about and I looked for things to say in all my usual places. Then I watched this <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mt49hQgutMY" target="_blank">video</a> and felt like I needed to write about: </font></strong> <ul> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Jeremiah 29:13 ;&amp;version=31;" target="_blank">Jeremiah 29:13</a></font></strong></div> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3>You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.</font></strong></div> <li> <div align=left><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>The point being: </font></strong><strong><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZvMbLR0n9gg"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Where is God Hiding?</font></a></strong></div></ul> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>The search for meaning <font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>isn't the only thing that's </strong></font></strong></font><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>bothering me though. It's this <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Painless-Writing-Jeffrey-Strausser/dp/0764118102/ref=sr_1_48?ie=UTF8&amp;s=books&amp;qid=1204655930&amp;sr=1-48" target="_blank">book</a> on writing giving me trouble too, but that's not what I want to write about. In the Gabriel movie they talked about passion and desire, which I had just wrote <img title=Wizard src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/15/15_3_39.gif" align=left border=0>about <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2100.entry" target="_blank">Wicked's Desire</a> on </strong></font><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>Friday and it seemed so familiar to me. </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>It was too coincidental and left me feeling eerie about the way things happen. Chris' comment on my Wicked's Desire story saying, &quot;</strong></font><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>I love this line: &quot;The mystical way that things happen that we often take for granted and associate with coincidence, chance or as an every day happenstance.&quot;&quot; Is exactly what I am talking about in regards to meaning.</strong></font> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I didn't even know about the movie and have used the name Gabriel (a <img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=right border=0>spiritual being) in my Fiction Friday entries with Wicked (a character name I use) and have been writing stories about, all seems too strange. I try to shrug them off as every day accuracies, but I am left with a search for meaning!</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>       Jeff</font></strong>  <strong> <br></strong> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+Search+for+Meaning!&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2115.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2115.entryMon, 10 Mar 2008 22:27:21 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2115/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2115.entry#comment2008-03-10T22:27:21Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2073.entry<p><img title="Question Mark" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_33_7.gif" align=left border=0> <strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I don't have a topic to write about today so it looks like I will be taking it &quot;Off the top of My Head&quot; and I don't why anyone would want to read this, but you're more than welcome to if you like. The thoughts that have come to mind is: Planning is the key to achieving <img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=right border=0>your goals in life, and just like my writing for today, it's clear to me that I don't have a plan, the book that I am reading right now <b><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Focus-Good-Stuff-Power-Appreciation/dp/0787988790/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&amp;s=books&amp;qid=1204057398&amp;sr=1-1" target="_blank">Focus on the Good Stuff</a>, and I am on chapter 7 about how to appreciate yourself.</b></font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I really am enjoying reading this book, and I think that it is very well written, and the author: Mike Robbins talks about everyday <img title=Reading src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_13_3.gif" align=left border=0>circumstances and how we are creating our own destiny by our thoughts, the book has an underlining theme of the Law of Attraction. I want to write down the five most important aspects of self-appreciation because I can't seem to appreciate myself, here they are: </font></strong> <ul> <li><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3>Accept yourself just as you are.</font></strong> <li><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3>&quot;Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.&quot; </font></strong> <li><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3>Focus on your strengths.</font></strong> <li><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3>Celebrate yourself and your success. </font></strong> <li><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><font color="#ff0000">Acknowledge yourself all the time.</font></font></strong></ul> <p><img title="Good Vs Evil" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_9_209.gif" align=left border=0><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I think these are great and I have been doing my best to achieve these goals, but there is always something holding me back. I wish I could figure out what that something is. I have the feeling that the something is &quot;My Inner Self&quot; that's holding me back, but why am I doing this to <img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=right border=0>myself? Maybe if I would just focus on the good stuff and quit listening to the negative statements that I am always hearing from my conscience (or whoever that voice is) I could accomplish these goals and appreciate myself. </font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>       Jeff</font></strong>  <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+Off+the+top+of+My+Head&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2073.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2073.entryWed, 27 Feb 2008 20:27:29 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2073/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2073.entry#comment2008-03-29T14:16:22Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2023.entry<div align=center> <table bordercolor="#000000" height=500 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=0 width=760 background="http://ddgzwg.bay.livefilestore.com/y1pCrJ2wWCiJ6TDTQbLH2EH_1LsC357TYjAIW2uEyQHgszXWgUTMWjSwcLLSAxmkh3CjQ9CTtAYvDtM6qawGCu_RQ/Lonely %26 Depressed.jpg" border=0> <tbody> <tr> <td width=39 height=145>  <td width=304 height=145>  <td width=415 height=145>  <tr> <td width=39 height=318>  <td width=305 height=318> <div align=center> <div style="scrollbar-face-color:#856300;left:0px;float:right;overflow-x:hidden;overflow:scroll;width:300px;scrollbar-3dlight-color:#feb149;scrollbar-arrow-color:#feb149;scrollbar-base-color:#000000;height:117px"><font face=Verdana color="#feb149" size=1><b> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ffffff" size=3><strong>For the Lonely and Depressed</strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ffffff" size=3><strong>God bless all who are battling those inner demons of depression, loneliness, unworthiness, and hopelessness. Shine Your warm Heavenly Light down upon all of us, Lord, who are looking for our soul mates. Guide us to find peace, happiness, and contentment in our lives and within ourselves.<br>Amen. </strong></font> <p><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ffffff" size=3><strong></strong></font> <ul> <li><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ffffff" size=3><strong>Source: </strong></font><a href="http://www.beliefnet.com:80/prayeroftheday/prayer_one.asp?pid=1801" target="_blank"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ffffff" size=3><strong>Beliefnet</strong></font></a> <li><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ffffff" size=3><strong>Source: </strong></font><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/" target="_blank"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ffffff" size=3><strong>Picture by Jeff</strong></font></a> <li><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ffffff" size=3><strong>Source: </strong></font><a href="http://d3vmax.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!73AF9C0F050E35D9!34275.entry"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ffffff" size=3><strong>Background Table</strong></font></a> <li><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ffffff" size=3><strong>Thanks for Listening,</strong></font> <li><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ffffff" size=3><strong>Jeff</strong></font><br></ul></b></font></div></div> <td width=415 height=318>  <tr> <td width=39 height=37>  <td width=306 height=37>  <td width=415 height=37> </tbody></table></div> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx">My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+Lonely+%26+Depressed&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2023.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2023.entryTue, 12 Feb 2008 20:21:12 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2023/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!2023.entry#comment2008-02-12T20:21:12Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1949.entry<p><img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=left border=0><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Maybe I shouldn't even be trying to write at the moment, &quot;What's this Mood?&quot; I thought about just posting a picture today, which would make it easy for me to avoid analyzing the way I feel. How about if I post a picture that looks like the way that I feel and try to analyze the picture? I really have no idea how this picture is going to <img title=Snappy src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_13_13.gif" align=right border=0>look on the page. I have always liked this picture because it shows how well things can camouflage themselves, and I am not just talking about the ducks.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Without further ado, here's the picture:<a href="http://do8mva.bay.livefilestore.com/y1pCrJ2wWCiJ6TUar5rGsSQ5q3a-4bKx23eH7QASoBWGUY_ydV2xqM9PH2tuYmlIkOyyThXZigB_PxITH28G6wp_Q?PARTNER=WRITER"><img style="border-right:0px;border-top:0px;border-left:0px;border-bottom:0px" height=195 alt="Ducks in Flight" src="http://by1.storage.msn.com/y1pA8zWCkNArbKuPjWQNPDLSmfoLlFJe-mNZQu1vfN7Wf3Irwo9UPLMHt_NBw1J2BUvflYzLbFDiileBgSbx4tRNe9ci8Tojjg4?PARTNER=WRITER" width=244 align=right border=0></a></font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Yeah, I know it's kind a hard to see the female duck, she is very well camouflaged with the trees as the background, the green head and cream colored body of the male can be seen quite easily, though. The reason why I said this picture describes how I feel is because: I know that I am feel something, but just like the female duck in the picture, this feeling is camouflaged. I think that's why I like </font></strong><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>this picture so much is because you <strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><img title="Shy Whistler" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_18_7.gif" align=left border=0></font></strong>really have to look hard at the details to see what's there.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>It's like you have to use your imagination to fill in the details to get the image clear in your mind. I can do that with the picture, but I can't seem to be able to do that with my feelings or mood. Do any of you understand what I am talking about or is it just me? I can usually figure out what my mood is, especially anger or hate, but it's the moods that are camouflaged in the other thoughts and feelings, which leaves me puzzled and confused, as to try and understand what they are.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I didn't know what to write about today, and that always makes me feel like I am not be honest with<img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=right border=0> myself. I think what I have said today is crystal clear in my mind, unlike the mood that's camouflaged in my mind. I hope that you like the picture, because it shows that everything isn't always crystal clear.</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>       Jeff     </font></strong>  <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+What's+this+Mood%3f&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1949.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1949.entryMon, 28 Jan 2008 15:21:26 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1949/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1949.entry#comment2008-01-28T15:21:26Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1915.entry<p><a href="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCHdeYIWpRa3e5qvBGrNDbDAUT1rkGPYYzmt-HfmLYyz4exuPkvGt2qNt-2Nsx8y3XU?PARTNER=WRITER"><img style="border-right:0px;border-top:0px;border-left:0px;border-bottom:0px" height=224 alt=Utopia src="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCGr95JHn3oVx9QXtqbOLZSSZt39xMzSTCJ_1sHO4DcjQOLi0ob3WJOctr6pqqB02KQ?PARTNER=WRITER" width=214 align=left border=0></a>  <strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I find life as a <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Humility" target="_blank">humbling</a> experience: I am so glad I didn't read Janie's article: <a href="http://writeanything.wordpress.com/2008/01/21/legacy/" target="_blank">What is Your Legacy?</a>  until after I had made my posts today, for now, &quot;I am Truly Humble!&quot; If I would have read her article, before I wrote today; <img title="Love Letter" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_211v.gif" align=right border=0>it would have changed my whole perception of my writing. For now I feel humbled by the masters of their craft, writers. I am but a grain of sand; in comparison to the size of the sun, when it comes to great writers. I made the boastful claim <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1912.entry" target="_blank">Today I am a Writer!</a> and now after reading <a href="http://andrewolmsted.com/archives/2008/01/final_post.html" target="_blank">Final Post</a> I am struggling to put words on the page.</font></strong> <p><img title="Soldier's Kiss" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_5_14v.gif" align=left border=0><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>I would not have made that claim today, if I had read their articles, because now my writing seems unworthy for the page. But maybe that's not the way I should be looking at life and writing. When I read <a href="http://andrewolmsted.com/archives/2008/01/final_post.html" target="_blank">Andrew Olmsted's Final Post</a> it made me want to be able to express my thoughts into <img title="Troop Smiley 1" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/14/14_2_108.gif" align=right border=0>writing as eloquently as he did. His Final Post is a tribute to all our military personnel to record their feelings in their own final tribute. I know that it has me thinking about &quot;What My Legacy&quot; might say, in fact, I will be working to achieve the quality of excellence in my writing and life that Andrew showed in his. </font></strong> <p><img title=Morph src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_4_13.gif" align=left border=0> <p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3>It is times like these that I truly wonder, <em>What is life all about? </em>The thought, which comes to mind, is <img title="Angel 2" src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_22_25.gif" align=right border=0><font color="#ff0000">LOVE</font>! My heart goes out to Andrew's family, and to all the family's who have given up so much. So that we can enjoy the freedom we all know and love here in America. May God bless this great country of ours and every American!</font></strong> <ul> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3><font color="#000000">I pray:</font> &quot;Lord God, Creator of all things; show mercy and love on all Your children on Earth, bless each and every one of us!&quot; </font></strong></div> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#ff0000" size=3><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amen" target="_blank">Amen</a> </font></strong></div> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong></div> <li> <div align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>Jeff</font></strong></div></ul> <p><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+I+am+Truly+Humble!&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1915.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1915.entryMon, 21 Jan 2008 22:21:17 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1915/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1915.entry#comment2008-06-04T21:49:49Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1844.entry<p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><a href="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCE0A6w_yvn0YOyQheaQzEtqz-zCPUUXrLtztSdCmf2_BdU2Q-DIidv-hCkZgxk-mbQ?PARTNER=WRITER"><img style="border-top-width:0px;border-left-width:0px;border-bottom-width:0px;border-right-width:0px" height=244 alt="Bitter Cold" src="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCHpVrecvyEABb7hS1ALErs-qXuZjYJK_B9jTw_GgpNlfDGNfwCXtFbMwjX-nZNIxzU?PARTNER=WRITER" width=190 align=left border=0></a> This is my entry to the <a href="http://writeanything.wordpress.com/2008/01/15/poetry-contest/" target="_blank">Poetry Contest</a> at the <a href="http://www.take2max.com/writing/" target="_blank">Write Stuff</a>. I don't know anything about writing poetry, but today I wrote a poem called <strong><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1840.entry" target="_blank">My Life Has Been!</a> I thought writing the poem satisfied a need I had to summarize my life, and it made me feel good. Which has inspired me to try and write another poem to enter the contest.</strong></font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><font color="#ff0000">Bitter Cold!</font></strong></font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><font color="#000000">Is a painful experience </font></strong></font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><font color="#000000">Once you have felt it, the stinging pain</font></strong></font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong><font color="#000000">It is not something easily forgotten</font></strong></font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>If you survived the bitter cold</font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>You are more apt to be prepared</font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>What can prepare you for the bitter cold of Loneliness?</font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>Thanks for Listening,</font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3>Jeff</font></strong> <p align=center><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" color="#000000" size=3><a title="Permanent Link: Poetry Contest" href="http://www.take2max.com/writing/2008/01/15/poetry-contest/" rel=bookmark><u><font color="#810081">Poetry Contest</font></u></a></font></strong>  <p align=left><a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/default.aspx"><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><strong>My Unique Life in Windows Live Space</strong></font></a><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=4406977619992375891&page=RSS%3a+My+Poem%3a+Bitter+Cold!&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=MyUniqueLifeSpace">http://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1844.entry#commenthttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1844.entryFri, 11 Jan 2008 12:21:31 GMT0blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1844/comments/feed.rsshttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1844.entry#comment2008-06-04T22:00:10Zhttp://MyUniqueLifeSpace.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1823.entry<p><strong><font face="Tempus Sans ITC" size=3><a href="http://www.experienceproject.com/group_profile.php?g=233" target="_blank"><img style="border-right:0px;border-top:0px;border-left:0px;border-bottom:0px" height=234 alt="You're Not Alone" src="http://byfiles.storage.msn.com/y1pFJ8M7un6RCGGSueLuStgn2DiysO-PdQ6gR8uzNTDwU0aSpjKCsLhFPERJcaccpv0FMo2miKGE3k?PARTNER=WRITER" width=119 align=left border=0></a> This is the group that inspired me to join the <a href="http://www.experienceproject.com/index.php" target="_blank">Experience Project</a> and write <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D28BACBD4BDF253!1376.entry" target="_blank">I am so Lonely</a>. I also wrote this entry: <a href="http://myuniquelifespace.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!3D2